Sunday, 4 March 2012 22:59
i will type the whole letter out
this is the letter which i shed a tears:
atikah.s
well it's been a long since we spend our time together.haha funny i wrote this letter to you.because i realise time is short i may not know when is my last look at your face is and also when is my last breath in this world.staying in the hospital has made me realize a friendship lay's within my heart and my friendship with you has made me change from a different person to a different person .you were my tissue when i needed it .you were my glue when i'm heart broken . you were my life when i decide to end it. and last you are my tween. i remember our promised dream that we sheared under the moon light,where you and me wanted to be a singer also go out country and study . i love and misses these moment that we had together. i love you ( love you too,babe.hehehe) and i won't do anything to hurt you because i don't even iintent to hurt you. i wanna get back to the old day when the phone rings and i knew it was you. i wanna have that crazy talk we used to have . your the only one that i needed cause i don't wanna feel lonely anymore.Your always my answer to every problems i never intend to treat you as my dog or what .so ever people say!!would do what ever it takes to bring us back together.fixed all the broken part and countiue to keep us together forget what people say's just put your trust in me and believe i can change please.people want us to be apart.but i'm doing my best to not let them take control in our friendship,because only the both of us can make our decision, if we wanna be apart or remains as BFFL. i know i have not always been there when you needed me or when your looking for me.i admit i was not a good BFFL to you and your always there supporting me.youand yoru mum are the reason whyi'm schooling youmake me feel that i have another sister that i can talk to and share all my problems with . i've have been yoru hard time friend.i've been making it hard for you everytime and youstill stay and be my bffl.people kept sayinbg and asking you to stop being my friend.why didn't you listen to them? why do you still go on tthis thick and thin with me where as you could be happy with other friends.
but you still choose to go onnthis stupid rollercoaster ride with me.you never fail to make me smile, youaccepted me for who i am and your always there to biched with me. ilove pyou ATIKAH SELAMAT
.even if you hate me for some reason . be sure in mind i still love you. i ate myself for treating you this way.after you and my mum have help me to pay my school fees ,brouhgt fo r my school shirt&ever time in your live.i did not meant it . i never intent to what people say about me is right adn if people asked youto stop being a friend to me they are right too. you are like my guardian angle and i really do cherished you as my bffl i did thought of a giving up of our friendship at first but loner i look at the mirror i think of you.you are me as far as i am you always hear to me. i just cannot get the feeling out on my mind is like your always in my heart and soul.and you never stop whining in my mind.i tired to kill myself by eatting alot of sleeping pills,but i thing i have no luck ofr it i just kept pulling myself together and thinking of you.what will happened if i were not in your life.and if i give up very fast people will laugh and jump in the air that we are apart. i don't wanna leave you. i wanna grow grow old with you.i wanna have our wedding together with american guy,and have a child at the same time and is my child is born i want uoi to be it's god mum.take care of it like it's your own.promised me can .that our friendship will last for life.
it's 4 years .soon right no is just 3 years 10 months.2 more month 4 years can we still go on
?? with god willing we can . i love you babe.
Letter from my bffl.
i will reply soon . (due to homework . soon wait for it.
anyways this is it.well , the reason never think much about what other people think is because i believe in you, and change you to a good person step by step.but then when i think back , i am really making the bigger mistake even by wanting to change you. so don't change. but then i can't believe that i ,i mean we are still friend ( don't think it's a bad thing.) it's a good thing. so really we are still going strong even if we don't really have time to hangout nowadays, due to well, anyways i love you too .babe . i a least have another person who love and do things that i can relate. but then, come to think so it another sister. . i am not really good with words.
sorry if it's short.
just don't forget , i am always there for you and our friendship will be strong then ever so no sweat.
and don't do anything stupid
PLEASE!!
i can't bear to lose anyone anymore.i can't bear it . the sadness and all.
Saturday, 3 March 2012 21:50
once again , i am here to blog
when i was cleaning my room . i come across a bunch of letters which (like 1-3 hours ago)
anyways,i just read this letter which i just came across which i tear up after,
which said,
to long to type anyways it about my bffl, i still have it i am lucky to have a friend like you too.
